Wednesday, January 16, 2008
random.
Negro
had a horrible time today.
was tailed by a fucking Negro. so fucking scary!
i dont wanna type every single details out now. cos i simply dont wanna be reminded of it.
but seriously, the feeling of being tailed by someone from 3 mrt stns to all e way to yr neighbourhood is super fucking fucking spine-chilling scary la, trust me!
my heart was like beating oh-so fast.
Living on my own
so, finally my mum has consented to me living alone. Living independently.
no rent needed and absolutely no bill payments at the end of e month.
lucky or wat?
but on 2nd thougts, i think im not up for it.
cause, thats not living independently on yr own. how to, when everything is paid by Mama?
so sien lor like dat.
and for another reason, the house is like way too big for me.
way too big for me to reside alone by myself.
4 rm flat all for me? ermm.. thnk u but NO.
plus whenever im alone in e hse, it really does gvs me e creeps.
n i have had 'experience' there. so 'nuff said y'all.
and another reason being, im not yet a master in e cooking field.
and i dont wanna rely on outside food or fast food.
certainly not healthy lor.
next reason is, at this moment im not e strong aini.
im e aini that is prone to breakdwns now,
n having said that, i can alr visualise that if i do stay alone there,
i think its just a matter of time before i really gonna hv a nervous breakdwn.
and finally, the last reason is, i love to drink lah all rite?
so if i stay alone, im definitely gonna buy loads of booze n drink myself to death.
im running awy, rmb? so im gonna numb myself.
im gonna self terminate. im shutting myself off.
and thus the need for me to turn to booze. - for the booze always helps, wout a doubt!
but, but, but i dun wanna be a alcoholic at my tender age of only 20.
so im gonna be smart n say no to living at jrg west all alone.
atleast stayin with nenny i know im not that exposed to drinking daily.
and plus there's food to be eaten after werk daily, no housework to do at all as there's always my domestic helper, not to forget i can always rely on acap n syada n pop over to their house.
but on e other side, e politics if it.. ermm ermm...
oh well, u simply cant hv e best of both worlds rite?
life is never a box of chocs anyway.
random
1 - pple nowadays are so fictional eh?
do they rili think everything goes behind monitor screens?
sigh!
2 - i miss my late nights, my parties, my shots, the dancefloor, my clubbing kakis.
3 - n also i miss ida. ida, u've been missed. n fuck LC, havent call to gv me cert! kuku bird!
4 - im shutting off, seriously. im self terminating. : )
