Sunday, May 18, 2008
1000pm now, n not even a morsel of any food has passed down my mouth.
I had some liquid, Milo to be precise n even that was vomitted out.
God, seriously i hate being sick.
I slept forty winks yersternight, kept tossing n turning. Now my head is in constant pain, my back is freaking aching, my stomach is like bloating. N i know it's filled with gas/wind.
All this, even after i took that damn meds.
Talking about yesternight, i was so appalled by those who are involved. I am so bewildered n obviously disgusted by the whole lot of them. If there's any respect i have for them in the past, all of it has been lost, by their own actions no less. All gone in a poof!
If others whine to you about politics they faced, they for sure havent deal with the utmost one, which i am dealing with now, n for what it seems like, has been forever.
Betrayals, hypocrisy, lies, multiple faces, acts, drama, talks I've seen it all.
In fact, what i deal with, surpassses any of e norm that others are facing, if u ask me.
I certainly dont understand how these pple think or how their brain function. I am definitely dubious of their conscience, if they claim they do have any. Their actions certainly perplexed me.
All of which are only empty talks.
Every single one just do not wanna give in. Everyone is oh-so selfish, not sparing a thought for others n only placing themselves first. To think they even had the freaking cheek to ask me?! Goodness. Arent they embarrassed at all? Now we know who's all say n who's all action huh?
And to top it off, of all person, they asked me. Well not they, but him. Hah! I am so like their last person on mind for them or him to even consider. What are the others for? For show only? Or simply just in name? I am somehow convinced, that all this while, words coming out from your mouth was just an act. A whole juicy drama. Grammy's or Oscar's certainly miss out on u when they are giving out the awards, i believe.
With such situation at hand, u pple cudnt n shudnt blame me for thinking like this. Heck, u pple are not even fit to berate me. I am freaking doin this out of my own fucking kindness, lemme refresh yr memory in case u forget for a while there.
Simply said, u pples are not worthy to be on e same talkin and action level with me. To be held up higher, far from it definitely. In your dreams perhaps.
Young i may be, but my action undoubtedly proves that i am so much more matured then u freaking pples.
Havent my actions speak for themselves?
So much for the main person sacrifices n all. And this is what the main person got in return?
My condolences indeed. He who have walked so far n tolerate so much, n yet this is what he get?
Do u really need the catastrophic inevitable to happen for u to wake up n realize? By then, wouldnt it all be already too late? Too late to make amends n beg for apology n done what u shud have done EONS, CENTURIES ago?
Oh wells, that's just so typical of human behavior. When things are simple, they have to go to the extend to make it to be so complex.
