I wished to know more about him. Really, i do. But, thing is, i dont know how to broach the subject. I dont wanna tell him openly that i fancy him. I only know part of his name n his nick which everyone called him. No idea on how old, marital status and all.

And im scared that after i know the real deal, i maybe disappointed or even worst, much more hopeful. I dont wanna reach to that point of no return. I mean, i dont even know how/what he looks me as. He's kinda unpredictable, u see. On some days, i am god-damn sure that whatever im feeling is not one-sided, and its being reciprocated but on other days he seems very "untouchable". Well, like all others he too have his tempers, ups and downs.

Somehow deep inside i knew that this is just a one-off thing, an infatuation. But now its very, and i really mean VERY overwhelming. Im constantly thinking of him 24/7. i look forward to see him everyday. I try to steal every precious single moment/minutes/seconds to talk to him. Asking him silly question when i already knew he know nuts about it or question where it doesnt involves him at all.

shitshitshitshit. i dont like this, or maybe i like this but i dont like the real deal? Bloody McSpicy!

close ones, im sorry if i kept on harping/talking all about him.
Babe, can ar? can ar? can ar? Im sure the infatuation will be over soon.
Bear with me on this.