Sunday, May 20, 2007
Credits...
a BIG BIG thnks to sheila or i better know her as chubby, for editing html, layout of my blogs etc etc
Now im starting to get the hang of editing html/layouts will definitely b back to try out more!!
n beb i see ya on the 30th oki??
be sure to make it happen!
thnks again!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Frenzy State Of Cryin ... ... ...
Dunnoe why but im in a frenzy state of cryin lately....
sigh...
Just last Mon while i was onleave, i watched King Kong over at SCV..
n i cried at the ending!!
The ending is where king kong is being shot den falls off the buildin, all this for the sake of rescuing the lady. [i dun think any of my meows will do anythink like this for me!]
Im a very emotinal person when it comes to movies, esp movies involving animals.
I recall cryin countless of times when i watched e many reruns of Mighty Joe Young, esp the part where he drops frm the ferris wheel, man dat just captured my heart n i cudnt help it but let the tears flow freely!
Then there's the Free Willy, the whole series of it, i just kept weepin n weepin...
i dun think there is any one like me right..cryin at the above mentioned movies...
i noe deep dwn im a very much crybaby.
but u'll never catch me cryin coz the times when i cried are all done in my bathroom.
I'll be lockin myself up for hours n will let out everything...
I dun like pple to see me cryin coz dats when they'll see the vulnerability in me n i certainly dun like dat.!
i like to potray the image dat im a strong gerl, undettered etc etc..
I just dun like others to show me the sympathetic face..eeekkksss!
Oh well, dats just me, will never show my sadness/unhapiness to others...
Think im goin bonkers sooner or latter..
To0dles~!
Monday, May 7, 2007
Missin my kittays~~~ =(
Im missin my meows...~~
ereng, pearlie whites n elsa..
they are off to the vet for neuterin
My legs just go weak whenever i imagine dem lyin at the vet's table waiting to undergo the op.. urghhhh~~~
oh well.... its ok.. its for their benefit..
im so darn worried,
my mind right now is undergoin lotsa lotsa stufss, dat explains why im being exceptionally yakky today...
been yakkin n yakkin...n dats the reason why u see i post so many in just today itself..
hopefully all goes as per plan...
n i'll have dem back with me by 2mr night or latest wed night.
need to check if i have classes tomorrow night, if i dont which means i can take dem back...wuhoo~
Ugh! Hopefully they are safe in the vet's hands n may Allah look over them. Amin.
Many facts/points on me...???
.... .... ....
- Fun to be with.
- Secretive.
- Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
- Takes pride in oneself.
- Has reputation.
- Easily consoled.
- Honest.
- Concerned about people's feelings.
- Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
- Moody and easily hurt.
- Witty and sparkly.
- Spazzy at times.
- Not revengeful.
- Forgiving but NEVER FORGETS.
- Strong sense of sympathy.
- Wary and sharp.
- Judges people through observations.
- Loves to be alone.
- Always broods about the past and the old friends.
- Not aggressive unless provoked.
- Loves to be loved.[whu doesnt ryte??]
- Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
- Someone who's capable to hide away all her feelings from almost everyone.
- Has a penchant fOr writing evrything dats happening ard her.
- An auprohile.
- Has the ability to bottle up everything and remain calm n happy no matter what happens..
- Also capabLe of giving advice to the peOpLe ard her..
- She aLwayS pLace others before her at
- Quite ObseSsive of her paSt reLatiOnship
- A gamophobia perhaps?? [think this is sorta true!!]
Hmm...on some point it really hit the nail! i'll give it a 8.5-9 outta 10!
For those dat knows me deep enuff, go figure!
Just a phase.. maybe??
ok this totally sucks!!!
think i may have fallen into forbidden city! shucks!
done things dat i shudnt - actually i shudnt be usin the word "done" coz i've not done anything wrong but as of now i cant seems to think of a much betta werd!
is the whole pr0cess gonna be repeated yet again?
is this like anothr cycle or wat??
if it is, den it totally sucks!
Sometimes certain things are not just for u to control, of all times it just had to happen now, the very moment i din expect it or wanted it too.
Actually, truth be told there's a mini part in me dat wanted this, but it just came by like POW!!
its so surreal, feel as thou like im in fairyland...
i have to pinch myself a couple of times to really get me back to reality!
ok ok note to self : live one day n take 1 step at a time! if its meant to be, its meant to be. No point chasin after whats not yrs in the very 1st place!
Breakin Up At KFC??
Just wanted to recall few wks back when i was at kfc havin my lunch/dinner??
Right opposite of me, there's this malay couple.. age group i'd say below 25...
the gerl was happily eatin her chix away..
den suddenly she was cryin like hell...
sobbin n sobbin, dats the part where i guess the guy ask for a split?
immediately she lost appetite n stopped eatin..
the guy somehow felt guilty [atleast he still got sum humanity in him!] proceed to stop eatin n start to comfort the gerl... her flows were streaming dwn...like a waterfall non-stop..
i as a onlooker already feel awkward by seein dat...
the gerl must be feelin thrice devastated, with alot more others lookin at herr...
how many of u have ever face this situation?
splittin at KFC?? sucha a stupid idea!
wat the heck was the one dat proposed this idea was thinking man?
with all eyes on u..
of all place kfc???
there's so many other suitable places like, to name a few, under yr blk or sum other place where u can really talk it out..
kfc?? omg! the gerl must have come by happily eatin n meetin her bf den suddenly her bf drop the bombshell!
i cant imagine if someday shud i ever have a bf, whu wud wanna split with me in the premises of kfc?? i dare say i'll end up laffin my way thru...
kfc potrays a happy gathering image for me, definitely not the place for u to use it as a breakin ground!
Pls guys, go look up for sum other nice place oki?
So lesson learnt today - pple, at all times do not, i repeat do not ever split at the premises of any fast food joints/shopping malls/amusement centres/in the cinema n the list goes on.
Go find a place with the least pple the better, where there's abit of tranquilty, nice scenery/surrounding n drop the darn bombshell! atleast it doesnt seems to be as bad as at kfc!
Plus there's also the talkin/reason part... can u imagine reason/talkin with lotsa pple chatterrin right beside u? if it were me i so cudnt concentrate!
1 nice place to recommend - the stretch in between Takashimaya SC n Wisma Atria, opposite
Lucky Plaza... i belive wat many call those as Taka Garden
Life....
Suddenly it strucks me dat my life is only rotatin ard work,hm n occasionally sch.Lately my social life sucks abit.My frens are all bit by bit MIA, mybe im so focused or shall i say too tired frm working dat i cudnt be bothered to go out n meet pple...
Every single other day i met the same pple.. be it in the MRT, work, school, home.. It just gets so boring at times. Now my life looks like more like a cycle/routine
My social life seems to be thinnin n thinnin lately.
Im missing my late party nights, gettin tipsy occasionally...
Now.. i still have pple askin me to go clubs with dem, just dat im sick of goin with pple dat i dun really click with u noe.. just go with u for e sake of goin or in better terms just to have a clubbing pal?
I am seriously so cannot go on further with it.
Now den i realise i dun really have a bestie, i mean real bestie as in close fren dat u will talk yr heart out, be there for u when times call for it, cry together with u, etc etc.
i have frens who may seems like close frens with me, but their ways of close fren is like, when they need u they come lookin for u. Dats not what close fren means to me, dat is more like u makin use of yr frens. Well, mybe they have found their close fren, by this i meant by bf.
It just sucks u noe to see yr so-called close fren happily movin on life with her bf den when they quarrel they came running back to u?? - this is the part where it sucks like hell! do i really potray the image of a one-stop counselling session here?? when u're dwn den u come lookin for me.. wth!
they say boys come n go but for me even "close frens" come n go.. mybe i just havent hit the right one..
with me bein so super bloody damn soft hearted, i cudnt have the heart to like totally switch off myself frm dem in times like those.. Sigh! dats the trouble of bein too s0ft-hearted! I noe i may not seems like a soft hearetd person but deep dwn i really am!
I dunnoe why,but i dun like to tell others my worries/sadness/probs etc etc.
i just find it so super hard to like open up n let it out.
i suck at tellin pple but im gd at writing.
n i make a very gd listener/counsellor/advisor - im not makin this up, i had pple tellg me this, funny isnt it..? believe it anot, its yr call, not dat i care even if u chose not to believe! lol!
i just find it dat when sometimes i wanna tell pple, they'll seems like totally not interested at all n will start giving me the are-u-done? face.. n dat just stops me from goin furtehr, not even a word more. every single time i always end up sayin only like a mere 2 sentence which is not even the beginning of it. Well maybe its just me bein sensitive..
1yrs n 6mths had past n here i am still like an idiot!
i dun noe why im still sorta idling n indirectly waiting where he already found the light of his life.
its just so difficult to like carry on from where i had left. Shucks! din expect to have this impact!
I've been tellin others dat i had gotten over it, where in fact im still in the process of it now!
Its so hard for me to like drop him off like a bombshell!
truth be told i shud have already seen this coming but yet i tell myself, this aint the same.. yah right!
Why is it when everytime im ready to invest, really invest this sorta thing has to happen.. ugh! sigh!
Went to do some retail therapy this month, end up spendin alot!
Bot for my kittys a door dangler toy. n beauty products for myself, hey a gerl still gotta take care of her beauty u noe, even if the werld's endin 2mr!
Im really in need of the ratail therapy, definitely will do me sum good!
there's still so many more in me...
but i hate lengthy post... hehe
Pics of my meows...
Pics of my requested meows...
Sorry for the blurry pics, coz like usual i am only able to snap dem in action usin my hp cam.
First 2 pics are my granny's..
Rest of the lot.. errmm i dont owned dem but instead they owned me.. hehe
Enjoy~
PearLie Whites, Gegerl n Brownie
Kiddie
My youngest, formal name is Cho-kie but is definitely betta knows as e-reng
The Only Queen in my hsehold. Yenny. oh dun be mistaken by the term queen dats what i call her. By Queen i dun meant by breedin queen...
Zzzzz, dats wat he do best!
Elsa. a stray i rescued whom initially was supposed to be up for adoption but as u noe, ... ... i can only say the rest is history..
She's at this everytime im online.
My Oldest! Magnificent Coco Licious The Great
He's the king of the hsehould. very manipulative. 1 min he's barin his tummy to u, the next while u carressin him, he will just paw at u right at the face!
Yenny's tryin to get into the TV!
He somehow will make my day everytime im back tired frm werk. seein this always gets me filled back with enrgy
Just him doin his normal activity!
Hospitals.. n more hospitals... yeeks!
Feel like sucha long time since my last post.. well actually this is only my 2nd post...
Lotsa stufs happen lately at hm.
My mum had to undergo a op coz apparently she got sum growth in her stomach, now she's on the path of recovery. Had taken out her stiches..
Meanwhile my bro had to be taken to the hosp too..A&E!! Coz my family doctor suspect he got acute appendicts... But thnk god he's ok now.. Doc at hosp diagnosed he's only dwn with constipation... WTH... appendicts??
My granny had her day surgery for her thumb.. tommorw she's back to take out her stiches n do the op for the other thumb - dun ask me why or what happen... damn long story! wudnt wanna go there.
N one of my nieces in the middle of the night had to be brought in to the hosp, but e gd thing is she's not
hospitalised.. she was bein sent home.. lol!
Lotsa visits to the hosp lately.. but all's good now!
For me myself, lotsa ups n LOTSA downs lately.. like the usual, normal daily stuff.
Went to release the inner child in me yesternight... ahah
went to the UK fun fair... i had total fun! but aftr 2 rides den i decide i had enuff... coz i feel like vomittin but bloody hell it wudnt come out..
Been sucha a long time since i do this, suddenly it got me thinking after i start on my current job abt 9 mths back i have like lost touch with the real me.. the VERY REAL ME...
Not dat im sayin i hate my job, i love it n im thnkful dat i still get to receive a mthly paycheck everymth... eventhou its pittance but still it beats den gettin none - are u readin this bo$$?? haha
Toodles~
