Incase u're wondering, no, there wasnt any 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 for me on dat fateful day. Instead, i was kept busy with sponging Baobei with a towel on his forehead. He was down with fever. High fever, to be precise. Of all the days, he had to fall sick on his bday. Tell me, how much more depressing can it get ? That explains why he's so cranky n temperamental on dat week.

He was so-really testin my patience to the limit. For 4 days, no 5 days straight, mind u! I wonder how the hell did i managed to tolerate and endured the trauma caused by him... He really pushed me to the core. To the brink of the cliff. But lucky, Yours Truly has been enlightened n thus had since attained the art of being extremely, extra n EXCEPTIONALLY patient. The cursed-upon, darned Art of Patience.

Where impossible is changed to possible. Where NO is not an acceptable answer/excuse. Where you have to make things work for you. Where you change the negative to positive. Where all the unexpected bcame expected n where all the expected turned to be unexpected. Actually its all in the mind. It depends on which angle u see it frm n how u analyse it n finally how u tacked the issue.

Ok.. back to the topic.. So.. I would say, all went quite well, but not really as per planned on the big day itself. Arrangements made was backlashed n rebounded. We had mini arguments, but i relent n gave in on accord of his bday. We didnt get to eat the ice cream cake that he wanted. That farkin aunty of that god-damned shop was incorrigible! Prior to the big day, I had already surveyed n went to the shop beforehand. I had already asked abt the cake and all the necessary details, they too didnt mentioned anything out of the ordinary. Salesperson only told me, that for the day, their cakes had sold out.

31st dec - THE BIG DAY ! Bloody hell! Evrything was running amok! Infact, all my plans backfired and we nearly cancelled the whole thing! That blardy farking auntie told me, that we HAD to pre-order the cake a day in advance. !!! !!@#$%^&*... The first time while i was there enquiring abt it, she farking did not mentioned anything abt advance ordering. Farking fark her! And to make matters worst, i and Baobei was already at her shop at that point of time.

Can u imagine how dissapointed he must hv felt? Just think, Me as the organiser who plans all this, the one who's not celebrating anything, can feel so freakin upset and dissapointed, what more him, the birthday boy for the day? He must hv felt so totally dejected. I felt so bad for him. The guilt in me. Feels like im the cause of all this. All his dissapointment n etc. I am sucha letdown. Sighh..

If the cake was a 2kg or so, i can accept the fact that it need to be pre-ordered first. I mean, thats valid enuff. People seldom buy ice-cream cake, plus it doesnt come cheap so reason accecpted.. But the shop that we went, the cake was less then 10bux! It was only 150g. Obviously, its meant for like one or 2pax.. U put two protractor together.. those semi-circle thingy for math.. thats the size of the cake. Pre-ordered for that?! She really gotta be farking kiddin! That's ridiculous isnt it?

So we walked over to Iluma. Man, dat place was daylight robbery! They got the cake, but it was O-T-T exorbitant. Way too costly. Plus it was like 2kg or so, maybe less..? Furthermore, the 2 of us couldnt possibly finished it. So with crestfallen heavy hearts, we despondently left the place feeling very dampened. In the end, we just went to had our dinner at Fish & Co. Baobei wanted to much to go n dine at that restaurant. Cant figure whats so significant abt it, that he literally goes gaga over it. He so-so wanna dine der. Been talkin abt it since like FOREVER. But well, thats the least i could do for him on dat day. Nvm if its no high-end chi-chi resto. We are easily appeased. To placate us is a piece of cake.(take note : only in some certain situation, that is) We try to make do with whatever we can. :) If its not within our grasp, then we have learn not to hope for the unreachable.

Afterwhich we zoomed off to The Place, place was just a-ok. Not really rundown but neither was it posh. Just average, i would say. Waterfront was much much more way betta off.! So the rest of it, lets just keep it safely under wraps, shall we?

So 2009 has been a total blast for me! Here's a run thru : -

someone who SHOULDNT be doing this, has done the never-to-be-mentioned, shameless, cursed-upon, atrocious, despised n heinous deed. He tells me dangerous stuffs that i dont wanna or wishes to noe. He pop me very sensitive, awkward, tough n prohibitive question(s). He has dropped a MASSIVE, HUGE, OVERSIZED atomic bomb on me. No, its not some wedding bells ringing or any officially popping the sacred Q. Im not talking abt Baobei. Someone who is forbidden & TOTALLY OFF-LIMITS. Someone who should back off frm me. Someone who should stay atleast 5 feet away frm me, Someone who shouldnt be harbouring any of this at all.

Ohmy. This is so deadly WRONG. It is against all the rules, regulations, law, code of conduct n all the others for years n still counting.. Since centuries of eons ago, it has already been publicised openly that this is so salacious and shady. This is a vicious, unlawful, unrightful, degrading, sordid, slimy, disgraceful n beastly act

He really isnt thinking straight. Must hv gone insane. Total nutcase. I am scared to the bones now. Whatever he told me, it left me shivering to the spine. This is so unethical, illicit, corrupt and certainly sinful. It is positively unbecoming, unacceptable and improper without a doubt.

Without questions, this is a towering SUPERIOR juvenile, a paramount SOVEREIGN vile and an extensive main act of vice. A supreme terrible cruel n wicked blunder. A known-by-all mistakes that he know he shouldnt be commiting. It is a total offending transgression. He is bypassing and trespassing on of his very own buddy. Something that is oh-s0 downright utterly unheard of! Doubtlessly preposterous, irrational, repulsive n outright revolting.!

He noes he shouldnt n cannot be telling me those confession. He is already with some, and technically so am i. We all know each other. i have no interest at all to get involved in any silly love triangle or watsoever complicating issue. He still got the cheek to say, if its ok with me, we can be together but we need not leave our current one. Wadaheck!

Do i really portray the image of a player? In my history of living, and with my best memory up to date, i have never played the timer game. And i hv no intention to start. No doubt, i may always say, forbidden stuffs are tempting. But sorry dude, this is an evident, obvious, clear cut NO-WAY, NO-GO.! Heck, not even in my dreams!

Dats not all, he told me that if Baobei has cut off all ties with him, he will move on to me. He decide not to hold back anymore now. He said, he have since waited this long, n tonite he has mustered enuff courage to let it all out.. So if there's any opportunity or miraculously if he's given a chance, he will grabbed hold of it, held on to it tightly n use it to his advantage. But its useless n pointless, all his efforts will be futile. I already told him point-blank, that whatever he's hoping for will never become reality. Will not now, will not also in the future.

It wasnt only yest that he got to know me. We're frens for almost a year alr n he divulge it now? Situation at hand is very very difficult. It wudnt be this bad, if i hadnt know e rest of them. Now i practically met n knew almost all of them. It would be so awkward, the next time im facing him. Having said that, Im not implyin that i ever hv feelings for him, that will not n NEVER happen. **Oh god, take me awy from all those malicious tots.

Ok maybe previously i ever compared him to e arsehole, but that doesnt proves or goes to show that i hv interest in him. No doubt, i ever said, he wud make a betta bf den e asshole. And i did mentioned to him, even to Baobei n to some of them, he deserved a betta gerl den his current one now. Not dat im tryin to sow discord here, but u gotta respect yr man, babe! U gotta give him face. U dont put him down, salivate on him, barked orders at him and treat him shabbily like yr free-laboured, no-wage-needed slave infront of his fren(s).
A man's ego is not the same as us, honey. Consider urself lucky, lady that he managed to last this long w ya. Given some other guys, u wud have been given the boot so long ago. U would already be jilted n ditched! Trust me, with that nasty attitute of urs, u wudnt surpass yr first monthsary, woman! There isnt any need for u to worship or pay tribute to him like he's royalty. Regard him with ample respect will be just fine.If u want others to respect u, u gotta respect others first. U gotta earn the respect. It's not given away as n when u want it.

I gotta reputation to think about. Asked him, why only now? What makes the confession come? Says he meet us frequently nowadays, feelings getting stronger. Cant lie to himself. Cant keep it as a secret. Gotta lemme noe. Its better to let it be known then him bottling it all up. Its better then no one finds out. Beats the idea of him liking me secretly n hvg to create excuses to see/meet me. Says initially he was shy n scared. Well, I dont hv monstrous, disastrous teeth, so i dont bite. But what i do have, is a sweet smile. Teehee. :) Ok, so if that is his reasons for holding back, man...! this guy is a easily intimidated weakling! What a chicken-heart, fraidy cat wimp he is. Such a wussy quitter. So much for a first lasting impression! Hahas!

Okok, truthfully, I am at a serious loss for words, And he could still ask me, do i feel e same for him? If he's thinking that im gonna reciprocate his feelings, then seriously he must hv gone berserk. Thats so totally absurd. His brains must hv depleted to ashes, i suppose.. Such abhorrent, loathsome n detestable behaviour.

Asked him, what makes him develop those forbidden feelings for me.. Says he's been observing me, realised that i am a one-man women. Someone who cud understand him. Someone who would gv him all e respect that he deserve. Someone who wouldnt infringe on his space/privacy n all those craps.. Someone who would accept him for what n who he is. Someone who neither label, nor judge, one who dont pass rude/sarcastic remarks when not needed. Im lovable, well-liked by many, pple tend to be at ease at me, im outgoing not rigid, able to blend in almost situations n yada yada yada...